i'll try to kiss you if you let me

i'm really tired of being that girl.
yeah, the one that makes out with other girl's boyfriend.
i really need to stop myself.
or find someone worth a shit so that i can be exclusive.



can't get my mind of someone.
why me?

long live the king

lets run away.
get the hell out of this town.
there is no need to rush.
we can just take our time.
plan it all right.
get a place in the mountains.
where it gets cold and snows.
no, i wouldn't like snow.
somewhere warm during the day
and sweat shirt weather at night.
yeah. that would be the life.

we're all whores some of us just get paid

i have come to realize i enjoy spending time alone.
don't get me wrong,
i love all of my friends and love their company.
but as of late, i just want to be alone.

i think part of this new found hermit feeling
is because anytime i spend time with my friends
its always cut short, and i have to make the phone calls.
everyone always does things at night
and i work at night.
i need a good book.
one that i can read that might cheer me up a little.

i think its time to reread
the perks of being a wallflower
again.

decision made?

i think.
i'm pretty sure i'm moving to savannah,
instead of moving to statesboro.
why?
it seems more practical.
i have a job in savannah,
and i spend most of my time there anyway.
i could easily go to armstrong, or savannah tech
or the fifty other colleges in savannah.
and, i really need to get out of my house.
i love my parents, and we get along
but i'm 18 now, i have a job
and i pay for all of my own things
maybe its time for me to start paying my own bills too.
i have a place in mind.
i just need reliable roommates.

tonight i'm leavin on a train...

so much has stayed the same.
nothing has changed.
got nothing to blog about.
don't care about stupidity anymore.
quitting smoking though.
makes me feel kinda sick now a days.
feeling just as lonely as always.
i'm not settling for second best anymore.
i'm no longer a last resort.
just someone to pass the time 'til their girl gets home.
no, i've got respect for myself.
more class than most in these parts.
so why don't i have my knight in shining armor
(too much class?)
maybe i should stop looking..
(too weak to try)
maybe its someone right in front of me
(they're just a passer by)
one day i'll have my prince.


its late.
good night.