thump.

its still beating.
faster, harder, stronger.
fluttering, non stop.
the pace gets quicker.
don't forget to breathe.
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as much as i do miss the people that used to be in my life.
i'm extremely happy for those that are in it currently.
its a feeling i have never quite experienced.
i'm happy for everything that i have received.
i'm happy to give it out.
despite my better judgment,
i think i'm really doing everything right this time.

i'll be walking across a stage in 5 days.
in an ugly maroon robe.
with a stupid looking cap.
and i'm ecstatic.

a few weeks from now we'll be working on our apartment.
we will make it what we want.
we'll tear down walls, rip up carpet,
and add a fresh coat of paint.
it will be what we make it in its entirety.
don't worry, it will be chaotic.
and it could spring up an argument or two.
but all of our hard work will pay off.